Wednesday, September 30, 2009

____d childh0od memoirs____

masihkah kau ingat gambar ini??
behind(from left)
liyana,nashriq,hafiz,aiman,faiz,feizal,hassan,amar,tang chee ann,wan aizat,shahrul nizam,amalina

second row (from left )
najwa husna,nur hazwani,shazrizana,nurul ashikin,syakilla,intan,suhaila,suhaili,norhazilah,azwi,hanisah,atiqah

front (from left)
vicky,iwan,abg arizuan,shafik,sir clement,fatin,ME,rozinadya,umi


i remember how excited we were that day,kte berbaris ngan penuh berhemah..xla berhemah tapi ikot ngan penoh semangat.sir clement juge tunjuk muke excitednye..see2,kte pose ngn baek..that was sir clement punye idea..hurm,looking at this pic it totally recalled everything..its all coming back to me now..haha..this innocence faces are those that colored my chilhood memories..adekah kamu semua maseh innocent?i hope sikit innocent itu masih ada.some of u,agk rapat ngn saya..some suke cari pasal ngn saya...kan??

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baru2 ini




kita ketemu lagi.this is us (some of us la) yg sudah agk tue..korang je r,i x..masih same ke kita?im very happy that kita sume still berkawan,dulu time sekolah kita suma close kan..walaupun ada yg i kejar dia ngn kusi,or i penah men cubit-cubit manja..kita kawan kan??im still d old jasmin u knew,n akan sentiasa jadi kawan korang yg terbaek..InsyaAllah.
n mintak sorry if spanjang frendship n perkenalan kita 13 tahun ni i ada sakitkan ati korang or terkasar bahase d sini sane..
saye sgt sayang SEJASA

Sunday, September 27, 2009

buat seseorang

Dari mata seseorang itu

Aku lihat ada sendu

Aku renung ada sepi

Dia ketawa tapi hati merintih

Dia senyum simpan seribu gundah..

Aku lihat pada wajahnya

Ada kekesalan,ada rasa rindu

Dia letih dinilai dan terus dibelenggu

Seseorang itu datang pada aku

Beri senyum dan kekuatannya pada aku

Walaupun dia sendiri masih cari erti bahagia..

Hatiku aku beri padanya

Aku mahu beri bahagia,aku mahu hapus lukanya

Sedikit pun dari riak wajahnya

Dia tidak pernah lahirkan sepi

Aku cuba beri cahaya padanya

Aku cuba mengerti sakitnya

Tapi cukupkah sekadar aku?

Dia penat dengan lumrah dunianya

Dalam ramai dia kosong

Dalam tangisnya tiada siapa peduli

Dulu mungkin dia leka,dulu mungkin dia lupa

Tapi kini dia cari erti hidupnya..

Seseorang yang aku sangat kagumi

Seseorang yang aku sangat cintai

Yang mampu aku beri cuma secebis hati

Yang mampu aku mohon agar Dia beri bahagia

Yang aku harap mereka beri kamu syurga

yang aku mahu cuma kebahagian kamu

dan cerita kita kekal dalam cinta

cinta,kamu punya aku

bahagialah kamu dalam cintaku..




Monday, September 14, 2009

kami..

berbunge2 tulis ini entry..tersenyom sorg2 i dpan screen..nseb i xnmpk muke bangge i ni,kalu x muntah mungkin..haha

yesterday was a greaaaaaaat day..si dia dtg kl,dhla da lame xjumpa..n obviously i always menanti penoh debaran nak jupe die..hari2 i tunggu ok.pham2 jela long distance kn..jupe due jam pon xpela,sigh~
time passed by sgt cepat..i xsempat nk tngok muke die lame2,nk ckp pasal mase dpan(ececeh..)
tapi kejap pun i rase cm sgt best dah..

i went to Sogo nk jupe die..n he was waiting 4 me there ngan kacip die,en syapik..mase mule2 nmpk die tu tingat rase 1st time bdebar2 nk jupe die mase 1st date..mcm tu la rase die..rase excited tp kne buat muke cool abes..cuba sedaya upaya control cool,smpai perot geli2,itula yg org panggey ade kupu2 dlm perut..tryla bwat kalu nk taw cmne..

i mmang kurang suke g sogo lagi2 time sale..sgt ramai masyarakat kt sane and i salu classify area sogo tu 'black area'..so xbrani sgt nk hangout situ tapi sbb en ijan sgt smangat mahu shopping di sane,atas nasihat pakar sale die,izmal..so i ikot je lorh.

1 menda pling best smalam,kami dpat pulang ke tmpat kesayangan..
unikop terchenta.pergh!nostalgic abes..tp i was so frustrated sbb xdpat mkn maggi goreng daging..mengidam abes!eventhou kami xspend masa bduaan,i enjoy je lepaking ngan his buddies..tringat zaman2 ktorang kt unikop dulu,lepak ramai2 jgak..
even ktorg kuar bdue pon msti ade je 'kipas-susah-mati' ikot..dah jadi biase dah,agpon kwn die kwn i jgak.

pastu..mkn plak smalam kt WAU,yg dah jd everyday's fav place ktorang s0 i memang truja abes,tapi as usual wat muke cool..mcm xda pape yg buat i rase nk jerit over excited..
walaupun hakikatnya tengok muke org kurang siuman,si
majan pon buat i tersenyum sbab tringat zaman2 dulu time i kt kedai mkan ngan ijan die selalu je nk join n buat i xsenang duduk..haih,itu pon sgt indah bila dikenang..

erm,tapi smalam tu da jadi smalam..en ijan pon da blik penang s0 marilah kita menunggu penuh debaran untuk perjumpaan seterusnya.sedey gak long distance,jumpa jarang sangat tapi rase cam indah plak menanti ni..nanti sampai masa kawin je..baeklah,please let me end my entry kat sini kalau x i akan melalut ngan angan2 kawin i plak..

gmbar2 sengaje di'blur'kan....hehe
tapi gmbar2 juga seperti mensabotaj saye kn?





Wednesday, September 9, 2009

hari ni hari raye?

hari ni hari raye ke??eikh?bukan2..
hari ni 09/09/09..terbaek sungguh tarikh..
ape hebat pasal tarikh ni?hebat sgtkah??ala mcm r next year x 10/10/10 n so on kn..jadi??
tp i dengar2la..chinese people believes that 090909 means 'long life'..heh?n many of them kt beijing sume decides to married today maybe being s0 hopeful that it brings luck to them..especially kununnye dapat memanjangkan usia perkahwinan itu?mungkinkah?

itu i tatau..u tau ke?

tp kn ckp pasal long life sume.seperti ada kebetulan ngn nombor emergency yg kte gune..999..itu talian hayat kite kn?jadi memanjangkan hayat?longevity..
ade kesinambungan?kebetulan?

xkesahla..whether today is a g0od day ke tak its depend on you la kan.
macam i,xla ada 'ong' punya day ke ape kan..dapat kenyataan markah test xbrape best ade ar..hahahaha

but siyesly,i x tipu (dose bulan pose ni kalu tipu),ape je astrological test i buat whether its islamic,chinese,quiz bodo2 budak skolah n even quiz FB kesukaan ramai..i salu dapat num 9..
yes..num 9!!i was born on 9 nov..n that makes me a number 9!
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istimewa ke num 9??

Number 9 - Humanitarian, compassionate, romantic, selfless, generous, philanthropic, loving, wisdom, idealist, artistic, spiritual healer, all allowing, other worldly, blending.

Number 9 as a Life Path Number:
9 (9, 18/9, 27/9, 36/9)
The Life Path 9 suggests that you entered this plane with an abundance of dramatic feelings coupled with a strong sense of compassion and generosity. The key to the nature of a Life Path number 9 person is found in their humanitarian attitude. Even the very average of those with life path 9 possess extremely compassionate tendencies. Usually this number produces an individual that is very trustworthy and honorable, and one unlikely to harbor any sort of prejudice. Obviously, this is a rather tall order, but you are, in fact, a person that feels very deeply for individuals less fortunate than yourself, and if you are in a position to help, you certainly will. The 9, being the highest of the single digit numbers, holds an elevated position in terms of responsibilities to mankind. Material gains are not overly important, although the quality of some life path 9 people is such that they are materially rewarded in very significant ways. In this, however, the 9 Life Path is not apt to get rich since they are very generous, sometimes to a fault, and usually have an easy come, easy go attitude about money. The rare 9 life path has a totally selfless attitude, giving up of material possessions for the common good. The 9 Life Path indicates you have a commanding presence. You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality. The term "hail-fellow" may have been coined to describe a 9 Life Path, as you may indeed be one of those who is generally upbeat and heartily friendly and congenial. You meet people easily and are quickly befriended because of your openness and amiable demeanor. Your genial ways often put you in the lead in whatever field of endeavor you pursue. Relationships can be difficult for you because it is hard to strike a balance that will work effectively. If your partner is one sharing your giving attitudes, the relationship will be happy and lasting. On the other hand, if you choose a partner whose focus is on material issues, problems will arise quickly. You tend to be quite sensitive, as you see the world with much feeling. The number 9's very deep understanding of life is sometimes manifested in the artistic and literary fields. If drama and acting is not your forte, it will surely be an area of great interest and potential. Likewise, you may be able to express your deep emotional feelings through painting, writing, music, or other art forms. The purpose of life for those with a 9 life path is often of a philosophical nature. Judges, spiritual leaders, healers and educators frequently have much 9 energy. The number is less inclined to the competitive business environment and may find this a struggle. As do all the life path numbers, the 9 has its negative side. Because of the demanding nature of the truly positive 9, many tend to fail in this category. It is not uncommon for persons with the 9 life path to fight the realities and challenges of purpose imposed here because selflessness is not an easy trait. You may have difficulty believing that giving and a lack of personal ambition can be satisfying. It must be realized and accepted that little long-term satisfaction and happiness is to be gained by rejecting the natural humanitarian inclinations of this path.

Number 9 as a Destiny Number:
9 (9, 18/9, 27/9, 36/9, 45/9, 54/9)
The number 9 Destiny suggests that the direction of growth in your lifetime will be in benevolent activities, in compassion, and in worldly understanding. You are living up to and growing toward your Destiny when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You must be willing to help others as you were intended to be the "big brother or big sister" type. You must work well with people, for you have the potential to inspire. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this Destiny. Career fields in which you can excel are many and include advisory roles, medicine, legal fields, artistic fields, diplomacy, and religion. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important. Your personal ambitions must be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and preserving a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural Destiny in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 Destiny can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this Destiny.

Number 9 as a Soul urge number:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you are happiest when you can do something to benefit humanity. You have a strong desire to make a difference in the world. Living life fully and helping where you can produces a sense of fulfillment.

Is your birthday day 9 of the month?
Your Life, You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow. Your Love, You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.
;') this is so me!(num 9 born on the 9th)

The spiritual meaning of number 9:
Bring us to the very height of vibrational frequencies in this number sequence. Nine's represent attainment, satisfaction, accomplishment, and our success to achieve an influence on our circumstances. The spiritual meaning of number Nine deals with intellectual power, inventiveness, influence over situations and things. Nine beseeches you to recognize your own internal attributes, and extend these abilities out into the world to make a positive, influential difference.

its a loooooooooooooong entry..hehe
ouh,i rase truje membaca kenyataan di atas..byk yg betul ar.
so whoever share num 9 jgak..welcome to the 9th club!
we're humanitarian so serve the w0rld babe!

p/s : kwn2,walaupon i tidak bermata duitan,mudah kesian..i syg duit i,jgn mintak blanja lebey2 ar..


Saturday, September 5, 2009

the little girl

Im just a little girl,

Who have dreams that she brought within,

Who have pain she’s hiding deep in,

But please don’t see me as a little girl,

The naïve little girl is only the body I live in..

As breathing started, it’ll stop I bet it will,

But I am still here, still in the body I live;

Don’t tell me what you want the little girl to be,

I love just being me..

I like my hair too be messy,

I like to be mysterious rather than being seen,

I don’t talk nonsense, I am just boring,

I am not looking for attention, it’s not my thing..

I don’t bother if you think I am fragile,

I don’t bother if you think I am too polite,

Or think I am not going to fight back and just keep it inside,

I don’t even listen if you go insane laughing at me,

Telling me ‘oh, come on be a bit wild and crazy!’,

Do you mind if I said, ’it’s not who I am, I don’t live to be silly’,

I don’t go to Leeds to be as smart,

I don’t be a bimbo to get men’s heart,

I don’t like to be perfect and trying too hard,

Because i am not living to please your heart

I don’t wrote to impress you,

I don’t whine of my imperfection,

I just love to hide in the little girl

And this is just the way I want to be..

Friday, September 4, 2009

15 ramadhan

15 more days to g0..syawal dtg lagi

nk heppy ke nk sedey bler puase nk abes?sedey smenanye..mase sgt cpat,kejap sgt kte singgh kt bulan ni..taun dpan InsyaAllah jumpa lagi,tp kalu x?sgt rugi kn..

i ni mcm org xbperasaan lately..smenjak dmam panas aritu,39 degrees!(tp xda kne ngena ngn H1N1) aku jd l0st seketika..

lost cmne?losing grip..losing my spirit!i asik skip classes afta dat week,it was s0 hard 4 me dat tyme..nothing seems rite but i dun even know ape kejadahkah yg melanda diri ini..i mcm longlai spnjang mase..mkn pon xlalu(itu yg pling pelik untuk seorg 'pemakan') n mase tu muke i mcm xnk hidup dah..
pastu 1 day tu bler dkhabarkan melalui angin uitm nk cuti 1 sem,i mcm..ok,dis is my time nk chill jap...g cuti2 ke kn..g shopping2
tp akhirnye,HAMPA!pak cik ibrahim da kuar statement,no cuti2 ye para pelajar tp ape yg positifnye statement sadis tu da menyentap balik segale vena kava yg ade dlm badan i untk jd normal kmbali.hurm..i trime dgn redha..

skarang?masih lost?ouh tidak lost lagi..kmbali ke dlm dunia uitm yg berbukit bukau,dunie buku tebal yg kdg2 dilukis org lidi dan love2 dtepi kerana busan dgn lecture dan dunia yg nyatanya refresh habis slepas hari2 lost tu..nsib baik pnyakit kbingungan tu ilang,kalu x?ramadhan yg pnoh kbingungan la jwbnye..maybe i akn lupe niat pose or lupe nk buke pose if d 'sickness' still goes on smpai today.i seriously tkot tyme demam tu,time tu mmg sgt critical kot H1N1 kt Msia terchenta ni..luckily time ramadhan ni stats cases xtruk sgt naik..Alhamdulillah..

p/s : i yg dh xlost puase dah 14 hari,kamu?
slamat berpose!