love of my life

no words could describe how thankful i am

Allah hantar awak pada saya..

Allah beri sayang awak pada saya

im happy and appreciate what u did for me all this while

the love is unconditional

and i try my best to give my best

nothing i could do compare to what u had give

thanks mama

u're my inspiration

i always hope i could give u the happiness

so that u feel the pain no more

thanks dear

u're my only hero

and i hope i could be the best girl in your life

the one who make u smile to your last breath

i <3 u both
and u know im nothing without you
my world crumble most of the time
but u never fail to cheer me up

smile,

happy looks good on you ;)

ketaq lutot

seseorang telah jadi begitu gentleman..begitu tekezot saya.

dia telah menggilakan dirinya yg memang gila2 remaja..
GILA SUNGGUH KAMU!
u bagitau mama i u nak kawin ngn i?
xsangke u begitu happening!

sekarang tau kenape i ketaq lutot?
sekarang tau kenapa I mundar mandir depan pintu bilik?
sekarang tau kenapa i call kawan i dan menjerit seperti histeria?

kerana itu..kerana dia yg begitu berani,terima kasih
now i tau u betul2 sayang i..
nk kahwin dah ke kita?
jgn heksaited sgt..wait-wait
not now kawan2..cuma ia bakal tiba!!!


tapi tetap,i rasa macam mimpi..
i dah perlu ckp pasal kahwin?
kamu memang hero saya..tp kali ini kamu superhero ok!
sungguh kamu buat saya terkedu..
btw,thanks dear..
eventhou baru meminang dalam telefon..daku tersentuh ;')

dan kepada diri i sendiri,i mahu berpesan..

'kamu yg bernama jasmin,jgn gatal sgt ye
study hard that is ur main focus now!'

somebody,pinch me now!

kerana kamu

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid..





little angels..b strong
live! eventhou its hard to breath..
smile! eventhou u fake it..
love! eventhou u trust it no more..

extra cheese moments (+,______________, +)

bler amik gambar..ade orang akan cakap CHEESE kan?so ini adelah koleksi gambar yang buat i put xtra cheese..gambar2 ini buat i senyum berkerang2
sebab??
meaningful mungkin..

pic paling skema n paling ingat!..knapa?sebab ni mase 1st date dulu..muke masing-masing masih budak2..haha

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dinner final year diploma - erm,i sangat suka tengok gambar ni cause that was a very great dinner for us..walaupun i macam orang pregnant dalam pic ni T-T

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jogjakarta-suka gambar ini kerana kami sangat/macam cool sekeluarga..its an all girl trip!FUN!!

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me graduating!!- mestila suka kan..gambar konvo dengan bonda terchenta plak tu,n sebab i mcm pkai lens ijau dalam pic ni...macam je

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raya haji 2007 (kot) - suka gambar ni sebab ia super cool macam xmuat kamera n gambar ini menjadi saksi kawan2 i ni memang camwhores pong!haha..

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Penang - ouh,tipula kalau tak suka..gambar dicaptured setelah berkurun tak jumpa!

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raya 2009 - i xtaw napa,tapi raya taun ni i rasa best n meriah sangat..dapat balik pekan pulak so memang terbaik la.ni gambar mama n adik masa pagi raya,ntah..i sukala gambar ni =) n gambar kat bawah ni pulak i amik masa malam raya

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Perhentian Island - vacation terbaik!!dapat hangout ngan kawan2 gila sekali sekala kat tempat camni memang syiok..i pon memang beach girl so pulau2 ni i suka bangat.gambar2 kat sana awesome2 belaka!

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baju kita sama la!-jangan pura2 tak tahu napa i suka gambar ni..malaysia boleh!

buat seseorang

Dari mata seseorang itu

Aku lihat ada sendu

Aku renung ada sepi

Dia ketawa tapi hati merintih

Dia senyum simpan seribu gundah..

Aku lihat pada wajahnya

Ada kekesalan,ada rasa rindu

Dia letih dinilai dan terus dibelenggu

Seseorang itu datang pada aku

Beri senyum dan kekuatannya pada aku

Walaupun dia sendiri masih cari erti bahagia..

Hatiku aku beri padanya

Aku mahu beri bahagia,aku mahu hapus lukanya

Sedikit pun dari riak wajahnya

Dia tidak pernah lahirkan sepi

Aku cuba beri cahaya padanya

Aku cuba mengerti sakitnya

Tapi cukupkah sekadar aku?

Dia penat dengan lumrah dunianya

Dalam ramai dia kosong

Dalam tangisnya tiada siapa peduli

Dulu mungkin dia leka,dulu mungkin dia lupa

Tapi kini dia cari erti hidupnya..

Seseorang yang aku sangat kagumi

Seseorang yang aku sangat cintai

Yang mampu aku beri cuma secebis hati

Yang mampu aku mohon agar Dia beri bahagia

Yang aku harap mereka beri kamu syurga

yang aku mahu cuma kebahagian kamu

dan cerita kita kekal dalam cinta

cinta,kamu punya aku

bahagialah kamu dalam cintaku..

kami..

berbunge2 tulis ini entry..tersenyom sorg2 i dpan screen..nseb i xnmpk muke bangge i ni,kalu x muntah mungkin..haha

yesterday was a greaaaaaaat day..si dia dtg kl,dhla da lame xjumpa..n obviously i always menanti penoh debaran nak jupe die..hari2 i tunggu ok.pham2 jela long distance kn..jupe due jam pon xpela,sigh~
time passed by sgt cepat..i xsempat nk tngok muke die lame2,nk ckp pasal mase dpan(ececeh..)
tapi kejap pun i rase cm sgt best dah..

i went to Sogo nk jupe die..n he was waiting 4 me there ngan kacip die,en syapik..mase mule2 nmpk die tu tingat rase 1st time bdebar2 nk jupe die mase 1st date..mcm tu la rase die..rase excited tp kne buat muke cool abes..cuba sedaya upaya control cool,smpai perot geli2,itula yg org panggey ade kupu2 dlm perut..tryla bwat kalu nk taw cmne..

i mmang kurang suke g sogo lagi2 time sale..sgt ramai masyarakat kt sane and i salu classify area sogo tu 'black area'..so xbrani sgt nk hangout situ tapi sbb en ijan sgt smangat mahu shopping di sane,atas nasihat pakar sale die,izmal..so i ikot je lorh.

1 menda pling best smalam,kami dpat pulang ke tmpat kesayangan..unikop terchenta.pergh!nostalgic abes..tp i was so frustrated sbb xdpat mkn maggi goreng daging..mengidam abes!eventhou kami xspend masa bduaan,i enjoy je lepaking ngan his buddies..tringat zaman2 ktorang kt unikop dulu,lepak ramai2 jgak..
even ktorg kuar bdue pon msti ade je 'kipas-susah-mati' ikot..dah jadi biase dah,agpon kwn die kwn i jgak.

pastu..mkn plak smalam kt WAU,yg dah jd everyday's fav place ktorang s0 i memang truja abes,tapi as usual wat muke cool..mcm xda pape yg buat i rase nk jerit over excited..
walaupun hakikatnya tengok muke org kurang siuman,si majan pon buat i tersenyum sbab tringat zaman2 dulu time i kt kedai mkan ngan ijan die selalu je nk join n buat i xsenang duduk..haih,itu pon sgt indah bila dikenang..

erm,tapi smalam tu da jadi smalam..en ijan pon da blik penang s0 marilah kita menunggu penuh debaran untuk perjumpaan seterusnya.sedey gak long distance,jumpa jarang sangat tapi rase cam indah plak menanti ni..nanti sampai masa kawin je..baeklah,please let me end my entry kat sini kalau x i akan melalut ngan angan2 kawin i plak..

gmbar2 sengaje di'blur'kan....hehe
tapi gmbar2 juga seperti mensabotaj saye kn?

is this me?blogging?

"they make me realize how sweet it is to be a

sister"

im updating 2hri bturut2..dat's a record for me wh0 touch dis blog like once evry six months?
haha..percayalah..ini memg saya menulis lagi =)

today i'd realized TWO things..all dis while saya xsedar diri ngan keadaan ini

1) sedar yang i really dunno how to control objek yang bernama 'WANG'

whether it is makan , shopping n penggunaan telefon..inilah issuenya.

i always get carried away bler pakai line..like i always so baik call people eventhough i know that they should be the one calling..and sms-ing people like 5pages..so me la~ and what did i got from being s0 in love with telefon genggam?my phone kenala barred because credit limit suda sampai..yea me!
end up kne mrh ngn en farizal because of this..errgh,haruslah saye korek duit untuk mbayar d bill.Not fairla kalau saye nk membebankan en.ijan ngan uwang sperti becky,d shopaholic mbebankan suaminya,Luke ngan overspend d kota London..tp saye xkanla confess saye over-shopaholic camtu,msih boleh dikawal

2) sedar bahwa jd housewife sgt sweet la

i dunno knape naluri keMUMMYan dtang tetbe..smenjak hari ni sempena mama outstation n i was left home alone bersama adik paling dmanding di dunia.xsangke cooking is my thing,saya truje je nk buat owg makan makanan saya masak..walaupun kadang2 saya tau org yg makan tu snyum paksa,tp its always sincere saya tetap cuba..masakan dari hati akan jatuh ke dalam perot dan menimbulkan rasa kenyang.I believe in that!
masa casting GARDENIA,bila i was cast to be a mum(walaupun msih muda remaja)..rasenya i failed to show how to prepared a bread with love..dat is what they told me to do,'show that u're preparing for a picnic for your loved one..u must show d motherly smile'..huh?smile like a mom?ok i try..
but never know did it work?or it still look like a 'terpaksa kakak making bread'..=p
erm,but suddenly today i know how to put up a motherly smile..and its really cool to be a housewife and makes everything looks perfect for d family..i realized how sweet it could be,making ur loved ones happy..
does this mean i want to leave my career behind and quit study now?haha..no never..i'll make sure im one superwoman in d future..a great housewife with a big career..ngee~

idop tu indah bler kte appreciate owg..

im very grateful to still enj0y dis beautiful life..sometimes kte lupe that sume yg jdi dlm life kte ni wuteva it is very meaningful..in s0me way it'll affect us,it'll leave u with a scar or a smile on your face..memories,either yg sgt pahit or yg semanis2nye is actually teaching us n guiding us in decision making especiallynye..kn2?yela..ape yg kte prnah lalui will eventually affect d way we think,d way we handle thing n i bet it's what yg mematangkn kte..

aku sgt2 bsyukur bler pk mcm2 jd dlm life aku..tp 2 sume jd menda pling precious.seriously,kdg2 aku tpk r kn..npela kne jupe owg pangai cmni,deal ngn owg sesengal ini n most of the time aku pon akn pk yg aku sgt2 bruntong knal owg ni,bkwn ngn owg ni n jupe owg sbaik ni...admit it la,kite slagi id0p ni msti r bramai2..xkn nk lone ranger kn s0 of c0z mem0ries kte 2 olwiz bkait ngn owg2 sekeliling kte..hurm,memories tu xsmestinye time kowg putos cinte or sakan bcinte monyet je..even sesi bt0lak2 dlm bus,kowg kne kcu ngn mamat bangla pon category memories gak..what c0unt is dat u remember it..

aku males nk cite2 memory bcinte ke bkasih syg xjd sume 2..i2 categ0ry cite yg aku da xbley proses jd mem0ry cz bley mnimbulkn kontroversi di kmudian hri..tp memory aku ngn owg skeliling aku yg mcm2 hal..annoying pon ade,besh pon ade.. for me,bruk baik owg yg muncul dlm life aku,i really2 appreciate it..kalu xde diowg dlm crita aku xda color r idop ni..guys,u RAWK my w0rld!!haha..

i w0nt list d0wn evrywun ere nnt kang cm aku dedicate d wh0le blog psl cite ni je plak but s0me of dis pe0ple mengindhkn/mencacatkn my life secare x sedar n i put their names ere nk bgtaw cmne diowg bley mlekat dlm memory aku..even if aku ilang ingatan

MAMA -of cz aku xkn lupe dunie akhirat..my mum n alwiz b my mum.i w0nt 4get care die didik aku s0 that aku jd perempuan dan bkan yg swaktu dngannya,n aku salute die bc0z she is wun superwoman i'd eva kn0wn..die sgt taBAH!sume pasal mama aku xkn lupe!she's alwiz d queen of my heart


BABA-eventhou we're not dat close,ptalian drah xkn putus..he's alwiz my dad.No matter what he's still my greatest dad...die xpndai tnjuk syg kt org tp aku taw die syg kt aku,aku xkn lupe n xpnah lupe dat he alwiz try t0 b d best 4 me..i noe dat

IJAN -Aku xkn lupe die jgak smpai bler2,cz die je lelaki yg aku rase bley rely 0n..die org yg salu wat aku ktawa,tp nangeh pon ye..mrah pon slalu..kre package lngkap r.tp ngn die je r sume 2,ngn die da 3 taun..da hafal sume habit die,cre die wt2 ego dpan membe tp bler kt blakang ilang r eg0 die ngn aku..mmg ann0ying sket tp aku ske!haha..yg pling xbuleh lupe care die wat aku buley trime die seadenya n sgt ske bler die pndg mate aku,sgt ikhlas..die ajar aku jd matang


AKIM -my younger br0ther,yg slalu sgt bwat pangai mnjengkelkan..n ske cri gduh ngn kakak die ni.eventhou age ktowg ni gap 13years,tp die ske cri pasl cm die abg aku..hahah..xpela dik,aku bg pluang..aku sgt tegas ngn die,tp s0wie die xpnah tk0t ngn aku..cmnepon he olwiz respect me as sister..die ni s0on to be r0meo,umur 8taun tp cite nk jiwang karat cm umor 27,adooyai..haih,krenah n lawak poyo die 2 i wud neva 4get


FIE-a.k.a my BFF.evnthou nw da x kacip cm dolu,she's still my best buddy..die sgt2 snsitif,n sgt salu mraj0k ngn aku dlu r tyme skolah..aku pon xphm kdg2..silly sumtimes,da mcm owg bcinte..aku xkn lupe btape caring nyer die,n dari pngai2 ske majok tu aku taw die ni sgt appreciate friendsHIP ktowg


GARLIC-ni membe aku yg pling spastik..haha..she's owiz bsemangat n sgt happening.snang sgt kwn ngn die ni,ni pon my vry BFF gak..die c0ol je,sush nk tngk die mrh..tp kalo die majok tu cm plik sgtla plak.ni pon kwn dri sk0lah gak yg mbesa sme2,n tbukti die geng masok air tbaik!i wont 4get btape die ske mbhan cre aku bckp..mengong!


TAM -kwn aku yg len dr len,oso my BFF yg tbaik jgk!suke wt pngai silly die,ditmbh plak ngn ke'boyish'an die..she's a great listener,n owiz b there 4u..i can say that she might l0ok hard as stone outside but she's soft inside..die ckp ngn aku die only akn jd girlish once SRK or Dvid beckham msok meming..s0 bcz of impian yg tlebey 'jenin' tu,aku sgt sure xkn lupe die..


LEYYA -ni my BFF yg sesape pon xkn lupe if die glak,memg scary..haha..die ni p0n sgt humor,kdg2 2 ske2 ati die je nk ckp ape..leyya ni sgt talkative,n she alwiz gv me d support when i need one..tp cmne sedey pon hri kowg,xpyah d0k dkat ngn die sure menda siyes pon jd lawak..she really make my day!


GDA - r00mies aku since i wuz in 1st semester kt dip. ag..sumandak sabah ni,rock abeh,kalu dngo die ckp pon sure korg taw die ni mmg lawak..i'd been her room8 4 almost 4 years,n im proudly present her,d award of best r0om8 eva!she's cool..n aku xkn lupe k0 as rkn kongsi cerek letrik,sterika n kdg2 baldi yg tbaik..


EDY-ni guy's fren aku yg pling best.ngn die ni xpyah nk pk2 wisau feeling2 or wutsoeva..die sgt neutral.ktowg sume,memg sgt close t0 him dlu r..die ni kmbar aku tyme zmn2 skola cz share title 'kring n tiang',pegi tuisyen sesame pkai beg sk0lah sme kaler,ks0t nike pon tsame..(ni cnfirm bf aku plik mmbaca ni) tp kt0wg ni da smpai owg ingt btoi2 siblings..xde lns0ng sesuatu(s0 hpe bf aku lega bace ni)aku xkn lupe die as membe aku yg sporting banget!


KWN2 UNIKOP-most of my fren there mmg happening,tp ade gak yg nyakitkn ati..yg kwat dengki pon rmai..tp aku kesah sket pon x.kwn2 aku..zatie,iyka,nadya,ieda..i really mish them.dowg ni manyk taw crita aku time kt sne dlu,kre owg2 kwat dlm life aku kt sne..kwn2 yg phm n vry supportive.wugila aku kalu lupe diowg


ABG BOY N AMI SYAH -ni dua org makhluk Tuhan yg introduce aku ngn ape i2 jamming,yg bg aku pluang jd leadsinger g nyanyi kt fnction,kt weddings..knalkn aku ngn drumstick,strumming,fonserto..haha..abg boy,mmg sgt ms0k air n sgt pr0tective n ami syah mrangkap husbnd aunty aku,antara uncle pling rpat r ngn aku..diorg ni tlalu mude nk anggp uncle n agk xseswai nk anggp abg..so diorg ni kluarge tdekat yg agk rapat ngn aku n kegilaan n kesintengan diowg xkn dlupekan..


UMI EMMA -ni aunty yg pling rock..dr kcik ag mmg die tman aku bmain,beza umor pon 6taun je..bler aku da mkin besa,kt diela aku bcite..more like a sister t0 me.die r dlu yg bwak aku jln cni sne afta SPM klu x sure aku cm ntah pape kt uma.Die sgt bley dpercayai,n she'll b d m0st trusted pers0n i neva 4get


TOK -ni r owg yg mbesarkn aku,of coz neve eva 4get her..aku sgt rse dielah w0rld's best grandma..die byk bg smangt,n die mmg aku xkn lupe..mcm 2 jgak ngn arwah aki..i really appreciate that they tke a good care of me afta the div0rce of my parents n bg hrapan kt aku..


IBU -eventhou die stepmother aku,die xpnah act like one..die sgt sporting n salu act like a frend t0 me n die xm0 aku rse gap btwn kt0wg..AKu xkn lupe die yg da byk tulung aku,xpnah wt aku rase jauh n alwiz try t0 make me feel comfortable n she's alwiz pr0ud of me,i would neva 4get that..

aku pon da pnat amat mnulis smenanye..nk gtaw sgt yg aku appreciate sume owg dlm life aku..manyk ag tp wut i cud say,my families f0r most r appreciated of coz..tlampau rmai owg yg aku rse pnting dlm life aku,aunty2 aku..uncle2,my sisters..but that wud tke 4eva..bruk bek owg tu,sakit mane ati aku..aku appreciate that diowg ade dlm life aku,thanks evrywun..its ok,juz hurt me or hate me..i really appreciate that kowg sudi jd sbhagian dri crita aku..
mekacih sume..=)

(,")tgn pon suda cramped!